I’m currently dating a man. I refuse to hide him because being in a relationship with him is part of who I am. If asked about my sexuality I would expect him to answer without pause that I identify as bi. Still, when a man is my date to a gay rights event there is an…
A week after I delete my old “Journal” Blog, She texts me. And on this blog, I don’t like to say names because, who fucking even cares what I’m talking about. But SHE… she’s another story. I cant talk to anyone about how I feel about this because, I’m supposed to be over her. I’m not. She’s just so much more then anything I’ve ever seen. She’s perfect. I can’t breathe when I read her texts.
Just recently, she stood me up for a coffee date because she was asked out by her current girlfriend like 20 minutes before we were supposed to meet up. And I respect that she’s not going to go on dates when she’s with someone, but it still hurt.
But today I get a text from her. She wants to meet up Tuesday before we go to group. You can not fathom how happy and nervous I am right now.
I have never felt like this for a girl before. She is just… god I just like being able to talk to her again. She makes my day better by being.
And it’s just the things she’s saying to me… My heart melts. When she blushes I just want to kiss her cheeks. And when she makes me blush I just want to bury my face in her neck.
Girl its what you do to me that makes me want you so god damn bad. I wish this was easier and I didn’t fuck up our chance a month ago.